September 20, 2009 at 9:48pm
Music: medicate-afi.
Subject: basix

i am not a failure. i can turn this around. every second is another chance. why am i wasting them? i am not beneath her. i am human, just like she is.

he wants to know why it's sudden, this is not sudden. love, this has been coming for awhile. can we get past this awkward break-up? can we just begin our friendship again? apparently not. i know there is questions, but they aren't questions i can answer.

it's like the stuffed animal i've had sense i was born has become a stranger to me as well. everything is new, is strange, i don't understand.

i feel so lost. and defiant of everything around me.
i hate it.