November 11, 2009 at 10:37pm
Mood: crazy
Music: Never Wanted To Dance - Mindless Self Indulgence
Subject: Douchebag

All guys are freaking douches. I've ignored my ex for about two weeks. He is the biggest jerk ever. If you still fucking liked her then why the hell did you ever ask me out? You expect us to be friends when I hate both of you right now!? I relized that neither of you really care for me, so I hope you two are happy together.

I know that my ex-best friend flirted with him, she's a slut and she has flirted with guys after I told her that I liked. I hate her, and I hate him for falling for her.

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November 2, 2009 at 5:41pm
Mood: crushed
Music: Savior - Rise Against
Subject: Guys are douche bags

Okay so I'm about to sound like a really whiny kid right now. I apologize, but dad you are a jerk. I get that your tired from working third shift, but I don't get any sleep and you want me to wake up five in the freaking morning to get ready to go to the doctor. You get home at eight. I know your tired, but don't you think after many sleepless nights that I'm not tired? Your just another typical man, you don't care about girls.

Anyways:

My boyfriend is in love with one my best friends. He likes her more than he likes me. He says that he doesn't want to hurt me, and he wants to talk when I get back in school tomorrow. He kept on asking me if I'm alright. Oh yeah I'm so happy that I'm puking rainbows (/sarcasm/) I knew he liked her, but I thought he was over her.

You see the deal about her is that she has always been sort of...slutty. She just broked up with another boyfriend. My mom says that she is jealous and is trying to steal him from me. This sounds like a good reason for him to go back to her. This happened when Kristen and her boyfriend broke up. She ran after Chase for a LONG time even though she had a boyfriend. Now that he is mine, she's taking him away. He liked me so much he said, but he still liked her. Why the hell does he like her so much again? It just came on suddenly.

I love her though so much, I just can't stand her ways. She is taking him away from me, and I really like him. I don't think he feels the same anymore.

My boyfriend has just proved to me that all guys are douche bags. I know it isn't all his fault, but he's fallen for it everytime she flirts with him.

I just don't know what to do. Me and him have been going out for a week today, he's my first boyfriend and he wants to break up with me for my best friend. I don't understand. He liked me alot last week, and now...

I kinda want to cry because I'm losing him even though we barely went out. I've known him for years and it hurts me. I don't love him yet, but you have no idea how much it hurts. I thought I had finally found someone who would finally be mine and like me back. I thought we would be together for awhile.

I feel like I'm about to cry. Honestly. I haven't cried in awhile due to my overwhelming happiness. He's going to ruin it. I really liked him alot.

Am I really that ugly? I must be, I feel so freaking ugly. She is alot prettier than me. I guess when he told me I was beautiful he didn't mean it.

I give up.

I know were going to break up even though were going to 'talk it out'. I was stupid to think that someone would ever want me. I was so stupid. I don't really want to work things out, you still like her more than me. So just go run into her arms. She's hurt you before.

I'm glad Logan said he would beat him up if he hurt me. I'm hurt. So Logan if you by any crazy chance see this kick his butt for me. He really did hurt me. It feels like he's cheating on me. I hate cheaters, so we'll be done by tomorrow.

I've lost all hope. That sounds emo. I hate that he told this all to me through text message the most.

;.(

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November 1, 2009 at 12:48pm
Mood: sick
Music: None
Subject: Laryngitis? OH NO!

I have that, you know Laryngitis. It's really bad. I can't talk at all except in a small whisper. I hate it I can't swallow, and then I have to go to the docter tomorrow and that means I'll have to miss school. I'll miss my boyfriend. D:

It sucks so much D:

I hope I get better, if I don't I'm going to whisper shout at someone.

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October 30, 2009 at 8:52pm
Mood: cheerful
Music: Put Soome Clothes On - Breathe Carolina
Subject: Let Me Do My Own Thing >.<

Okay, so my mom kinda of pissed me off today.

Oh, and before I get into this: THIS IS A RANT!

Anyways, we were talking about my boyfriend. He was on a feildtrip today, and so I didn't see him that much today. My mom went and bought me a phone card so I could text him. Well I did text him, and he didn't text back. I wasn't really mad until my mom said:

"Your not trying hard enough in your relationship. You haven't even kissed him yet!"

Hell no. I'm not kissing him now we haven't even been going out for a week. Yeah, he's amazing but you know what I want this to be special. Not just something that's spur of the moment in school.

Then she went on this big rant about how I should of went to the game last night, instead of doing homework and trying to catch up on my sleep. Andrew said he wouldn't care if I didn't go.

I told my mom that I don't like talking about my relationships and tried to end it there, but my mom can't let things go. So she proceded to then cuss me out calling me every name under the sun. I had to go eat in another room.

I guess she wants me to have sex with him or something. It just makes me so mad that she thinks she knows what she is doing. I want to do this right, I don't want to mess this up. She just doesn't understand.

Oh, I've gradually lost my voice. >.<
I can barely talk anymore, and when I do I sound like a freaking man.

ON TO HAPPIER THINGS!

I got my hair cut yesterday and I came in today and found Andrew he said I looked so adorable. It made my day :D

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October 27, 2009 at 3:32pm
Mood: cheerful
Music: Hummingbird - Nevershoutnever!
Subject: Taken 10/26/09 :D

He asked me out yesterday. It was so cute when he asked me. I ran over to my friends and started happy dancing and singing. He said it was adorable.

I said yes :D

Everyone is really happy for us. It's just the most amazing feeling ever!

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