June 29, 2009 at 6:01pm
Music: Dear God -- Avenged Sevenfold
Subject: Killmenow.

I wanted to write a little something. Nothing in particular. I feel like I have no thoughts running through my head. When in fact, I have so many of them, that it's hard to decipher which ones are there and which ones are just passing through. My head actually hurts because there's so much going on in there. My family is pretty stressed out lately. We're in a place we can't afford. My brother and myself aren't working anymore. It's my mom all on her own. I feel so bad. I myself have way too many fines I have to pay.. legally. If I don't pay those, I'm gonna be in big trouble. But at the same time I feel like I should help my mom. I know I could do both, but it would take longer and I need to get those fines paid asap. I'm probably already in trouble because of it. Ugh. alksdjfklsdjf. Life is stressful. I'm trying to keep a positive outlook on life. It's hard. When my boyfriend is away in treatment. My family is stressed. I live far out and nobody wants to drive out here. I never do anything. I don't work. Bleh. My boyfriend wants to get his own place with me. How can I do that when I have fines to pay? I want to get my own place, but how? I'm so upset. I'm trying not to think about it. So, I'm gonna stop talking about it. Thanks for listening. Any advice?