My name is Amanda. I am a junior at Livermore High School. I am misunderstood, as most people are.
I am stronger than you think, but I can only be strong for so long. I am a weak girl. Physically and emotionally. But I am smart, I have friends, I know what I want to do in life. Drama likes to eat its way into my life and I hate it. I can only put up a wall for so long. I know the world is cruel. I have been in tough situations. I have wanted to die.
Obviously I am not dead, for I am here writing this. I can move on. I do move on eventually. I overcome my fears and difficult situations. I learn from my mistakes. It may take me longer than some people, but at least I can say 'I did that'. I am a nice person, but I can be a bitch. I am not what people say I am. I am who I was born as and I am only what I say I am. I know this. People's words are just louder than mine.
I care about what people think of me. I'm trying to work on that. It's harder than it looks. Humans are critical. Humans judge. I know. I am human after all.
I'm sorry that some people think I should get over myself and I'm ugly and not perfect. Well guess what I say to all that? Fuck you. I am not perfect. Not everyone is going to like me. I know a lot of realistic measures. I can stick up for myself. Sometimes I'm just too fucking overwhelmed. Can you handle me actually saying all of this? Or do you think I'm weak and I need your help?
I'm tired of being bullied and rejected. But other than that; I'm a happy person. Everyone has a different perspective on each situation in life. Each and every person is different. But each and every person is unique for some quality whether it's looks or skills. Fuck. I'm just me. I don't understand why some people can't accept that. But I accept myself and I think that is all that matters.
I am single and looking, but this does not make me a whore. I am mature and I know what's right from wrong. I make a lot of new friends. I talk to much and my mouth tends to get me in trouble. I am not poor, I am not rich, I am living in a nice home. My parents aren't divorced. My brother is in the Navy. I am living a good life.
I know that at times I think my life sucks. My life is stupid. My parents are stupid. Everyone needs to go fall in a hole. I know that my life is better than others. I'm sorry if I offend you when my life is bad. I am only seeing things from my perspective.
I will go to college. I will find love. I will make friends. People will come and go from my life. I am living life as I was born to do. No one can be in control of me other than myself. Do not tell me what to do, I do not listen to your orders. You may be stronger than me. You may think you are better than me. But you're not. You're stupid to think that you can rise higher than me. Every single person is equal. Remember that.
Still want to talk to me? Go ahead. I'm friendly. I will make you laugh. I am good at giving advice. I just wanted to show how strong I really am.