November 21, 2009 at 4:00am
Subject: Unlicensed to Dream....betrayed by the angels with razor wings..does it make me bad?

Friday was absolute bomb diggity
I Went am at the Anime Usa with my two cousins in such
i saw people dressed in all these costumes and clothes
seen pictures souvoniers it was all like being in some animated
dream land esp the rave oh yes something i always wanted to
go to but of course that all couldnt have just been done and done.

well within exploring anime usa i've met two people
that i knew both guys and well i stayed close to Jeff
and well jeff is one of those dudes that doesnt ive above
or under the influence.

so like he was stayin at the hotel
where the convintion was being held at it
we exchanged numbers once i left the rave
and once it was over he txt me askin was i up
and i responded thus meeting him in his lobby

at his hotel loungin with him and his fellow roomies
which he said held 8 people nowhere for him to sleep
feelin bad yet he suggested to crash for one night at the room
i was stayin in just one night so i say sure

and we head out in such towards the hotel i was stayin at
and thats pretty much where everything headed down hill
not knowing what lied behind my room door of confusion and contact
of guardian which thus is sure to be transferred to my folks before
or after the trip is over which shook me a little

I just felt bad that i couldnt help jeff out i really tried
nobody takes me seriously and are always looking at the
negative connotations of every little fucking thing and truth
be told i know i care i dont care.

and right now i cant sleep i feel darkness overshadowing
from its surface once again i feel so dishonored i feel like crying
i feel like punching a wall i feel like screaming

All i need right now is My buddy Kevin Lewis....

I feel like hate is trying to close into me

I didn't need to hear my aunt lecture me because i already know

she just doesnt know what i've done or become

i'm not and never will i be that little girl anymore

they were/are my two cousins they couldve let it slide

but once sunday comes my ass will be roasted but you know what

i shouldve know with every skillet bring on the oil to make it all

simmer into a bitter taste

I just wanna go home now srsly.......

i cant trust anyone obviously

i dislike people who make such a big dreal out of nothing

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November 18, 2009 at 6:52am
Subject: Tumor Tuesday

My girly thing came hip hip HoorBooo
i just hope it goes away before the weekend or somewhere
in between my left foot is a little sore as well
and my throat has been buggin me for the past days
i dunno why....and i kinda dont wanna know just want it to stop
already
i talked to him a bit early so glad he was strucked my an awesome
cloud of musical inspiration like he was
i've been feelin rather weak lately
i just want him to be happy i mean thats what buddies are for right?
but sometimes i feel myself losing out then possiably gaining
but who really knows though.

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November 14, 2009 at 8:00pm
Subject: C-A-R-N-I-V-A-L

You Are a Ferris Wheel

Deep down, you are a fun, whimsical, and easygoing person. You often enjoy life for what it is, and the littlest changes in course can be quite thrilling. In relationships, people tend to feel what you feel. It can be liberating at first... But after a while, the people closest to you end up feeling a little trapped. Your life has perfectly normal cycles of ups and downs. However, you can't help but sometimes feel that you're missing out on the most exciting aspects of life. You only are happy when you're experiencing the highest of highs. Your low points just make you feel depressed, restless, and bored. At your best, you feel on top of the world with a great sense of perspective. You believe that anything is possible, and that you are happily looking down on everyone else. At your worst, you feel like your life is going in circles. You often feel like you're not going anywhere. This is sometimes psychologically disorienting. And sometimes it brings on a sense of hopelessness.

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November 14, 2009 at 7:57pm
Subject: Hot! Hot! Hot!

You Are Smokin' Hot

You're a terrible flirt, a sharp dresser, and a party animal. Of course, you're totally sizzling too. And for you, being hot just comes naturally.

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November 14, 2009 at 7:51pm

You Are 64% Good

You are a good person. You do the best you can to be ethical, fair, and moral. And as you know, being a good person means making hard decisions... and following them through. If you're confronted with an ethical dilemma, you will usually do the right thing. Of course you do slip up. No one's perfect. But you do your best to correct your missteps. You are also probably: incredibly honest, especially with yourself Right now you are on track to being: A respected leader To be a better person: Be kind to someone who is not very kind to you

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