July 4, 2009 at 8:33pm
Mood: lonely
Music: So What- P!nk
Subject: Boys Will Be Boys..

I have a boyfriend but there's this other one...We'll call him... uhm. "C." He's amazing...But Mark's amazing-er.
One day, C told me.. "By the way, one of my goals in life is to kiss you." We hang out almost all the time. When I'm not with family or Mark or friends, I'm with C. He's got a girlfriend...And I love him...I think he still loves me the same way, too because he's always...reaching for my hand...or trailing his fingers down my cheek/ neck. Our relationship is something that no one will understand. Not even if I sit for hours on end trying to explain. I love him...He probably loves me...

We're both happily in relationships but when we're together...it's something more than just friendship. I can't tell him I love him more than a friendd. I do love him more than a friend...and waaay more than a brother. Sometimes I want more but then I end up thinking about Mark. And I can't lose him. Ever. I won't lose him. But I don't want to lose C, either.
What do I do?! =[