Topic: Dirty Little Secrets VIII
Forum Index : General : Nonsensical Randomness / Games : Dirty Little Secrets VIII  
roxy-ryan


Posts: 8415
Bzoink Rockstar
Profile | Journal
Posted: 06 Nov 2018 10:41 AM         Subject: RE: Dirty Little Secrets VIII
I had a small health scare today regarding diabetes mostly.
I have been terrible and pushing it all to the side and didn't attend an appointment with my nurse and diabetic educator and now I have been cut from their system which I waited almost half a year to get on.
I have been having weird and scary side effects from not caring for myself and now I am worried.
I need to commit to getting healthier.


Roxy Ryan
30
Obsessed with AMC's The Walking Dead, Disney and Tumblr.

Wanna keep a hold of my heart
I'm falling into this again
Falling in and out of love.
chasingghosts


Posts: 48529
Bzoink Rockstar
Profile | Journal
Posted: 06 Nov 2018 08:00 PM         Subject: RE: Dirty Little Secrets VIII
I feel like I’m on the edge of a mental breakdown. I was reading about schizophrenia and thinking that I fit the signs to a T, which really worries me and there’s a genetic link in the family too so it’s not far-fetched. Last night I was hearing voices and sounds like my name being called and beeping noises. I worry that it’s all in my head, because I have terrible health anxiety and this is just another thing, but I’m also scared that if I ignore it, I could find myself in big trouble. I also have too much work to do and too many bills to pay to breakdown. I have to keep it together for the sake of my overall well-being but I’m holding on by the skin of my fingernails.
roxy-ryan


Posts: 8415
Bzoink Rockstar
Profile | Journal
Posted: 07 Nov 2018 12:40 AM         Subject: RE: Dirty Little Secrets VIII
Things are slowly falling apart but I am holding on.
My health is not getting better no matter what I do to try help it.
I think that is why I kind of 'gave up' and started caring less which obviously did not help the situation whatsoever.
Now that I am trying so damn hard to get things back on track another health scares arrived yesterday which has caused me to worry more so than usual & not only that financially things are falling apart. I don't know how much more I can take..


Roxy Ryan
30
Obsessed with AMC's The Walking Dead, Disney and Tumblr.

Wanna keep a hold of my heart
I'm falling into this again
Falling in and out of love.
roxy-ryan


Posts: 8415
Bzoink Rockstar
Profile | Journal
Posted: 07 Nov 2018 04:04 AM         Subject: RE: Dirty Little Secrets VIII
Is it wrong of me to make plans without including those around me ?
I feel like I have hit a stage in life where I want to focus on myself and MY goals.


Roxy Ryan
30
Obsessed with AMC's The Walking Dead, Disney and Tumblr.

Wanna keep a hold of my heart
I'm falling into this again
Falling in and out of love.
chasingghosts


Posts: 48529
Bzoink Rockstar
Profile | Journal
Posted: 07 Nov 2018 11:18 PM         Subject: RE: Dirty Little Secrets VIII
My entire life I’ve felt like I’ve never truly been heard. People listen to the words I say but they don’t HEAR me. I could scream out for help and they’d brush me off and tell me I’m fine.
roxy-ryan


Posts: 8415
Bzoink Rockstar
Profile | Journal
Posted: 08 Nov 2018 12:25 AM         Subject: RE: Dirty Little Secrets VIII
Sometimes I question how much I do for other people and how half of it is unappreciated.
I wonder what would happen if I suddenly stopped caring and left everything for others.


Roxy Ryan
30
Obsessed with AMC's The Walking Dead, Disney and Tumblr.

Wanna keep a hold of my heart
I'm falling into this again
Falling in and out of love.
chasingghosts


Posts: 48529
Bzoink Rockstar
Profile | Journal
Posted: 08 Nov 2018 08:03 AM         Subject: RE: Dirty Little Secrets VIII
Sometimes I just really want to be alone. So nobody has to deal with me, so nobody can bother me, so I can just be unapologetically me.
-onemoreday-


Posts: 3073
Wannabe Rockstar
Profile | Journal
Posted: 09 Nov 2018 11:59 PM         Subject: RE: Dirty Little Secrets VIII
I'm just BARELY able to handle everything lately. I'm doing a graphic design certificate program on top of working a ton, and this is the first time in weeks I've been able to relax a little. Oh and planning a wedding, too. Or at least trying to, in the midst of all this other crap I have going on. I know this busyness won't last forever, but for now, it's just so so so stressful.
chasingghosts


Posts: 48529
Bzoink Rockstar
Profile | Journal
Posted: 10 Nov 2018 01:16 AM         Subject: RE: Dirty Little Secrets VIII
I feel a bit stuck. I feel like I have no momentum.
roxy-ryan


Posts: 8415
Bzoink Rockstar
Profile | Journal
Posted: 13 Nov 2018 04:36 AM         Subject: RE: Dirty Little Secrets VIII
I have started getting myself together the past week.
I have made the correct appointments and re-scheduled those missed and even got the new referrals needed.
I have organised the perfect diet and exercise plan.
I have started throwing away all the junk food in the house.
I have called regarding yoga classes and booked a time to check it all out.
So why am I still feeling crap?


Roxy Ryan
30
Obsessed with AMC's The Walking Dead, Disney and Tumblr.

Wanna keep a hold of my heart
I'm falling into this again
Falling in and out of love.
xxakqkxx


Posts: 31060
Bzoink Rockstar
Profile | Journal
Posted: 22 Nov 2018 10:42 AM         Subject: RE: Dirty Little Secrets VIII
I have a very close friend of mine that gives me money because he likes to pay my bills and be financially content. He's given me almost $1,000 within the last 2 months.
trying to search for a purpose
I am Ari. ilyNancy
dreams are achievable
Way to my heart is owls
chasingghosts


Posts: 48529
Bzoink Rockstar
Profile | Journal
Posted: 22 Nov 2018 07:37 PM         Subject: RE: Dirty Little Secrets VIII
I can’t handle stress at all. I lose sleep, my muscles tense up and cause a lot of pain, it makes me so anxious I get nauseous and headaches. I don’t know how to deal with this.
-onemoreday-


Posts: 3073
Wannabe Rockstar
Profile | Journal
Posted: 22 Nov 2018 11:40 PM         Subject: RE: Dirty Little Secrets VIII
Today has made me realize just how negative and toxic and strained my relationship with my parents is getting to be. Especially with my mom. She's the narcissist driving the "let's always belittle and pick on Hannah" bandwagon and my dad is just along for the ride, never sticking up for me.

At what point do you go no-contact with someone who treats you like that? Even if they're you're parents?
roxy-ryan


Posts: 8415
Bzoink Rockstar
Profile | Journal
Posted: 26 Nov 2018 09:19 AM         Subject: RE: Dirty Little Secrets VIII
I am getting so annoyed with all these random guys seeing me in facebook groups and thinking it's okay to hit on me and treat me like an object.


Roxy Ryan
30
Obsessed with AMC's The Walking Dead, Disney and Tumblr.

Wanna keep a hold of my heart
I'm falling into this again
Falling in and out of love.
joybucket


Posts: 2884
Unstoppable Bzoinker
Profile | Journal
Posted: 27 Nov 2018 04:42 PM         Subject: RE: Dirty Little Secrets VIII
I made a really, really stupid decision four years ago....and it's still haunting me, and I'm not sure I know how to forgive myself...and I've made many stupid mistakes since...I know I've also done a lot of things right, but I've made a lot of stupid mistakes. I don't know why, and I wish I could go back and fix them!!!!! I keep saying, "I'm stupid" in my head.
Forum Index : General : Nonsensical Randomness / Games
 

Page: < 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 Next>>
You're at 44 of 49 pages.