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xkelster462x


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Posted: 23 Jul 2009 01:35 AM       Subject: Why does he have to do this to me?
So, Iíve about had it with my family. Iím ready to just runaway from home. Iím not a bad kid at all. I go on the computer, watch television and go out with friends sometimes. I never do drugs or go out drinking. Iím never out trying to make some guy like me. Iím always home safe in my house behaving. My dad never listens to me ever. I was on some websites for stores for when I go school shopping. He asked me what I was doing. So, I told him I was looking at stores to see what they have. He says great school shopping with all this going on. I know we are low in money. But I seriously need a lot of clothes and other things. Half my clothes are either torn or too small on me. He asked what I was doing and thatís how he gets. I told him nicely because sometimes I raise my voice. I donít know what to do. I feel so bad because I wish I could go out and make money and help them out but I canít. Most places wonít hire me. Maybe now they will since Iím sixteen but who knows? Iím doing everything to try and please him. I actually got to the 10th grade and for once Iím excited about school. I guess youíd have to know us personally to know what I mean. Iím just sick and tired of crying and never feeling good about myself.

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Posted: 23 Jul 2009 01:47 AM         Subject: RE: Why does he have to do this to me?
I'm so sorry Kelly, and believe me when I say I know exactly how you feel. I'm in pretty much the same boat as you with my house situation. I wish I could give you advice, but I can't really. But aleast your 16, that means only 2 years and you can move out, and you won't have to deal with this at all. The best advice I guess I can give is just don't let anything they say get to your heart, I know it hurts when you let things they say get to your heart, so try not to. I think it's great you want to help out with money issues, and since you're 16 you could probaly get a job somewhere, though you might want to try somewhere like a pet shop or art store, where people aren't applying for jobs too often, 'cause if you tried at a grocery store or fast food place you may get turned down due to adults also trying hard to get jobs now.
Well I do hope things can get better for you. *hugs* :]
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Posted: 23 Jul 2009 02:03 AM         Subject: RE: Why does he have to do this to me?
Well, atleast I'm not the only one. Yea 2 more years and I'm out of here. But it kills me because I want to be close with my family. Another thing is half my childhood I miss a lot of. I should have been out with friends but instead I was in my house listening to them argue. I've tried sports/hobbies/activies but it never seemed to work. An Art Store or Pet Shop sound like very cool ideas. I'm so emotionally wrecked from all this that I can't type so much. I'm shaking way to much.

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Posted: 23 Jul 2009 02:08 AM         Subject: RE: Why does he have to do this to me?
God, I really do know how you feel. And yeah I know how it feels to want to be close to your family, but kinda not be able to. I guess if you haven't already you could try talking to your parents about how you feel and see if that works out. Or write a letter to them, and if you're to worried then don't have to send it, but the good thing about it is that you got your feelings out regardless if you're sending the letter or not. It can be a bit of an outlet.
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Posted: 23 Jul 2009 03:50 PM         Subject: RE: Why does he have to do this to me?
About the money thing, darlin' I know how you feel. I don't even have a house to live in. Well, let me rephrase that. Me, my mom, brother, and sister all live with my grandparents. It gets cramped. And my family is sooo dysfunctional because of it. I know things get hard because money is tight, but you'll get through it. And it shouldn't be too much of your responsibility to help out with the money, you just turned 16, you're still practically a kid. I'm only 14, and I feel bad too for not being able to help out. I think you're awesome, 'cause you don't seem like one of those kids that CONSTANTLY need new clothes and are never satisfied. So, hun, don't feel bad about yourself. And I agree, don't let anything anyone says go to heart. Keep your head up. * hugs *
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Posted: 23 Jul 2009 10:11 PM         Subject: RE: Why does he have to do this to me?
I know I have to let it out more. Now that I come on here I can do that and feel good because you all are just so nice and heart warming. I'm going to try to get a job not just to help with my family but so I won't have to keep bugging them for money. I need a lot of things and if they can't do it then I must. If I don't get a job though I can't really do much.

We finally actually ate dinner together. I got nervous when I went to tell my dad about the trip to Atlantic City I want to take. But surprisingly he was not mean at all. He said yes, and by that time he might have a little money. Which felt great to be able to talk to him without him getting really mad.


I'm trying to stay as positive as I can and still be a kid at the same time. Things are much better then they ever were. About a year ago I tried to kill myself. I haven't thought or tried or said anything about that.


I love you all very much. I mean that from the bottom of my heart. Reading what you all have to say and being able to get along so great with people always puts a smile on my face. This is a great thing. And when I get my guitar that will help me a lot.

Once again I thank you all for the support you've gave me. =) I love you smexy Bzoinkers.

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Posted: 23 Jul 2009 10:17 PM         Subject: RE: Why does he have to do this to me?
We love you too darlin'. We all love helping you out. :D
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Posted: 23 Jul 2009 10:20 PM         Subject: RE: Why does he have to do this to me?
Yay! And I love helping you guys out. As much as I can or I try. 8)

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Posted: 23 Jul 2009 10:24 PM         Subject: RE: Why does he have to do this to me?
And you do a very good job.
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Posted: 23 Jul 2009 10:50 PM         Subject: RE: Why does he have to do this to me?
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Posted: 27 Jul 2009 02:29 AM         Subject: RE: Why does he have to do this to me?
i hope you don't mind me typing a lot :/
but It's the same with me. My parents have been divorced ever since i was 6 (i'm 14 now). My mom remarried this year on Valentines day with the man that me and my sister absolutely HATE. Hate IS a strong word, but that's how we feel. He has hit my mom before and he calls her bad names all the time. I feel horrible for my mom because she puts up with it. Every day my mom has to cook him breakfast, lunch and dinner. If not, he'll yell at her and stuff. My sister is 22, and she's currently studying abroad in Japan. So I can't go to her house to get away from all that. I can't really go to my dad's house because i haven't talked to him in two years. (he does drugs and drinks too much and i didn't want to be around that, so i stopped talking to him). I'm about to turn 15 in Feb, and i already have a job at Bojangles, i'm just waiting to turn 15 so i can get my permit signed by court. I've been in a lot of arguments with my mom because she always says i'm wayy too picky and that i get an attitude too much, but really i don't. I try soo hard to keep her from getting that way but i just think my mom yells at me because she's taking all her anger out. I know she really hates being yelled at all the time by her new husband, but she cries all the time and tells me a lot how she just needs to suck it up and deal with it. We just moved into his house and sold our new one, so we can't really move out based on the economy now. I cry like every day because i get yelled at soo much. I can't wait for my sister to get back. My plan is once i turn 15 and start working, i'm going to move out and live with my sister. But i can't legally move out until i'm 16, so my mom will be able to call social services to bring me back. we've already talked this over but my mom said no. but i don't like living with my mom and her husband. I can rarely ever get on the computer because my moms hus. thinks i'm talking to guys and watching porn and stuff. So that's why i'm rarely on here. sorry guys :/ lol. but this isn't about mee. i just wanted you to know every family has problems and you can't really do anything about it. If you ever need ANYTHING, i'll be here for you. And it's good to cry, because it let's all your feelings out. I cry almost every day. It helps me relieve the emotional pain i have.
Good luck hun : )
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